pc:HannahMy friend and I were talking and I went on a rant. And since she is such a loving friend she lets me go on rants and listens to them. Anyway,I was telling her about how I didn't feel good enough. I feel good enough for many people,but this one person I feel like I am just not good enough for.
I don't know why I am not good enough for her. I feel like I need to be. She might one day be an important part of my life. I try and try and try,but I can't seem to get on her good side. I watch the people that she loves to be around. The others many being my friends. I tell myself ask myself a lot of times what are they doing that you aren't? They seem to be acting normal.
Then it hit me. It doesn't matter if she thinks I am good enough. I have been aching for that approval. Striving for it. I have been wanting to work my way into her life. I cannot be in her life if she doesn't want me there. The thing is I shouldn't care if she wants me in her life. What it comes down to is that is only matters what God thinks. If He wants her in my life and me in hers then He will make a way.
I guess I just will have to wait and see what God wants. And pray.
1 Thessalonians 5:17- Pray without Ceasing